Did I say this?!

Here I am again... thought why not make best of my sarcasm today :) I AM BEST WHEN I AM SARCASTIC!! I know all second this thought. Just got back from a depressing meeting where I was again facing the fact that I am wasting my exceptionally brilliant brain. Anyways I know they'll need me for all the W advice, though I am hopeless at it.
Disclaimer: This blog is brutally honest. The names of characters have been changed to save me from charges of defamation!!
I can see J nodding his bald head and saying I'll get back at you. Well, be my guest. Since I have had little or no contribution in choosing my friends, I get the benefit of doubt.
I thoroughly thought over and over the format of this particular blog like a million time and finally decided to go ahead with a plain narrative way to store all the memories I have been making with these 3 guys in my life for the past 5 years now… and maybe use it against J . My memory is overloaded and I needed an external HDD to store the wonderful conversations that we have, to make space for new one!! Hence to maintain a blog was a necessity.
15th Aug 08
After an exhausting day of trekking, swimming and walking the woods with every part of her muscle screaming with pain that last thing on earth to test her patience is to be listening to another human being.
The phone rings and R wants to sue the network for following her on her holiday. After she comes to terms with exceptionally brilliant network she hopelessly picks the call and wants to know who is in distress.
J (upbeat and full of energy): hey! What’s up?!R ( after wondering for 2 seconds is wondering how would he feel if every inch of you was wanted to just be away from stress? Trying hard to recount all the times J has been good to her though that doesn’t help she manages to reply): u tell me?J (as usual ignorant to subtlety): well … I have been house hunting all day (R: wondering I am sure not on foot) and I got this amazing house in the most wonderful location in the world... You know the societies that you dream of living in
R (fails to share the excitement and manages a disinterested): ya
J (again ignorant to subtlety): so I have found it finally and want to move in… but the rent is a bit too much for me. Its awesome yaar! I have finalized the deal only if he bargains on the rent, can afford the place.
R (drained of energy to deal with inconsistent messages): well sounds good. So when are you moving in?
J (wants to share his temporary state of elation with R who is exhausted of all emotions but pain) arey it’s awesome and not good arey it’s very- very good!!
R (late in reacting and losing the trail of conversation): so are you is the pug lady your neighbor?
J(enjoys the mention of the pug lady with a devilish smirk on his face that makes his nose even more croked): well no … the rent was too high there, but I can go visit her any time!
R(ya right like you are the GODS gift to the women in Hyderabad): cool
J (sounding sombre): the rent is a little too much for me and I was wondering if SS would know of any woman who could share the apartment with me??

R(losing it now.. well for one u dialed the wrong number and two you have the right number, keeping her cool and sounding distracted, just manages a plain): ok

J (finally giving up all his efforts to carry-on this engaging conversation): let me finish things here and will call you back

R(finally with a smile sounding more than willing): good idea !!

R Hangs- up the phone with a sigh of relief after an exhausting monosyllabic conversation and hopes no more distress calls

CAUGHT UP IN CIRCLES, CONFUSION IS NOTHING NEW

Neither am I caught up in any new marketing campaign nor am I devoting my time to my so called GMAT. Yes, you heard it right I have also been bitten by the bug or I too have decided to be in queue for VISA with GMAT as my passport to an unexplored destination! Reading the above 2 lines if the RC section asked you to infer what the paragraph reads, you would probably check an option that says that I am one of the many Indians bitten by the "Phoreen" bug, as you won't be able to categorize me as a "BRAIN DRAIN" there will be violent protest (I know JB, J, Lenny and TG are nodding their heads right now) or unlike most of the people I know I am not a "CONFUSED INDIAN". So, all my close friends wonder what makes me go back to calculations and formulas I have been avoiding for the last 8years!! The motivation for me to pursue further studies to help me chart a successful and meaningful career has nothing to do with me being ambitious or wanting to climb the corporate ladder.
GMAT to me is more like a ticket to freedom... freedom from what? Freedom from the obligation of getting married at the right age and making others happy while sacrificing your own :)... yeah I know sounds typical of a 26 year old, commitment phobic character from any Hollywood movie...as far as I am concerned not that I am scared of making commitments, considering I have a resume of steady relationships that vouch for my stability. The point I fail to argue is, my family saying "it is the right age”. Somewhere deep down I too know that, but is it the right thing to do, coz it is the right age? no one can answer that and I am just tired of vague answers like " well, there is nothing as RIGHT TIME" or "you need to work it out" or "someday you are gonna end up doing it, so start early" or the most dreaded one "what are you waiting for", this is only really hits you hard, Its like asking haven't you finally arrived in life, which I don't agree with at all, why not take a closer look ...do I earn enuff? Maybe, are you happy with your job? Can’t say... have I met someone I would like to be with... complicated!! though I am the Gen X and the kid who welcomed millennium I still am too vary about taking a decision when it comes to life partner, unless I have someone in mind, I think that is the root cause of my confusion.
and to add to my confusion I suddenly feel that I am surrounded by eligible men who are either married (very complicated), my friends (a big NO, I know their gory habits), in relationship (as good as married and don't interest me), GAY (I don't interest them), Workaholics (I again don't interest them!), the intellects (need to remind them BRAINS are located way above) ... and rest are just JERKS (I speak from experience).
I never was a fan of Mills and Boons and found it cliché to read ... however I wish I was a character from the story :) or maybe that character from all those happily ever after movies :)
All of 26 years old I am already beginning to doubt my purpose in life. Is it just to work in a 9-5 job, earn and go home without any value adds or do I get married and do the right thing.
Well right and wrong haven't bothered me much...Else I would not be here pouring my heart out :)
Looks like I will still go ahead and try my best to run away from being caged as long as I can afford to...

OUR MOMENT OF FAME AT WORLD'S END Thankfully we have PVR, that plays at least 3-4 options at a time and the late night shows are the BEST option for ppl like us who are trying to get away from the BSES 's regular power cuts at untimely hours ...
Craving for the air conditioning in this heat, late night, is when Movies, our most prefferd option for entertainment.. just becomes necessity..
Thats when we were left with the option but to watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN ...
Well I can't say much about the movie as I slept through it. Well that was the whole purpose right to get a comfortable back seat , pull up the hand rest and just be comfy in the air contioning and relax ..well that is so close to sleeping that I couldn't resist . No offence to Jonny Depp or Orlando Bloom.. U guys are just too amazing however it was 2 in the morning and I was more intersted in getting some sleep than being bothered about who got the Ship, the black pearl,the heart , the compass..it all seemed so immaterial to me !

Well I was also tierd with all the shooting that we did before the movie ;) this is the closest , in our family history, anyone has ever gotten to Holly/Bollywood.

It was our glory time, captured by this VGA camera phone, with terrible resolution. If it was not for Taranaum Goel's low res Sony Ericsson camera phone, for which I am sure she paid a bomb, we almost made it to the P3 :)

Well thr is Choti, the next Fiona , for SHREK - 4. Ya they'll have human - ogre babies, like the Donkey and the Dragon..they get to keep Choti's face and Shrek's body. I just love the imagination ;) . Its the Next Summer Blockbuster ...she has already packed for the shoot.
Well then thr is me with my 2 mins of fame, shaking a leg with the only hunk in Bollywoood, ABHISHEK BACCHAN , who has been vindictively taken away.. by the most materialistic woman in the Bollywood!! This was the closet I could get to him, captured very successfully by our cameraman - Taranum Goel.
So, that was the fun part , we also enjoyed the popcorn at PVR, but the only issue is that the last show has maximum advertisments... 11:45pm movie starts, the next day at 12:15 am :) and gets over by 3:00 am ... you know ppl who come to watch the last show, are so doped with sleep that they are not in the right frame of mind to enjoy the speed of Karizma bikes or empathise with the Airtel Grand-dad. I feel thats a wrong time to bombard us, sleepy heads , with messages. WE WANT TO JUST GET OVER WITH THE MOVIE !!

But we'll still come back as PVR is our only saviour when there is no power !