CAUGHT UP IN CIRCLES, CONFUSION IS NOTHING NEW
Neither am I caught up in any new marketing campaign nor am I devoting my time to my so called GMAT. Yes, you heard it right I have also been bitten by the bug or I too have decided to be in queue for VISA with GMAT as my passport to an unexplored destination! Reading the above 2 lines if the RC section asked you to infer what the paragraph reads, you would probably check an option that says that I am one of the many Indians bitten by the "Phoreen" bug, as you won't be able to categorize me as a "BRAIN DRAIN" there will be violent protest (I know JB, J, Lenny and TG are nodding their heads right now) or unlike most of the people I know I am not a "CONFUSED INDIAN". So, all my close friends wonder what makes me go back to calculations and formulas I have been avoiding for the last 8years!! The motivation for me to pursue further studies to help me chart a successful and meaningful career has nothing to do with me being ambitious or wanting to climb the corporate ladder.
GMAT to me is more like a ticket to freedom... freedom from what? Freedom from the obligation of getting married at the right age and making others happy while sacrificing your own :)... yeah I know sounds typical of a 26 year old, commitment phobic character from any Hollywood movie...as far as I am concerned not that I am scared of making commitments, considering I have a resume of steady relationships that vouch for my stability. The point I fail to argue is, my family saying "it is the right age”. Somewhere deep down I too know that, but is it the right thing to do, coz it is the right age? no one can answer that and I am just tired of vague answers like " well, there is nothing as RIGHT TIME" or "you need to work it out" or "someday you are gonna end up doing it, so start early" or the most dreaded one "what are you waiting for", this is only really hits you hard, Its like asking haven't you finally arrived in life, which I don't agree with at all, why not take a closer look ...do I earn enuff? Maybe, are you happy with your job? Can’t say... have I met someone I would like to be with... complicated!! though I am the Gen X and the kid who welcomed millennium I still am too vary about taking a decision when it comes to life partner, unless I have someone in mind, I think that is the root cause of my confusion.
and to add to my confusion I suddenly feel that I am surrounded by eligible men who are either married (very complicated), my friends (a big NO, I know their gory habits), in relationship (as good as married and don't interest me), GAY (I don't interest them), Workaholics (I again don't interest them!), the intellects (need to remind them BRAINS are located way above) ... and rest are just JERKS (I speak from experience).
I never was a fan of Mills and Boons and found it cliché to read ... however I wish I was a character from the story :) or maybe that character from all those happily ever after movies :)
All of 26 years old I am already beginning to doubt my purpose in life. Is it just to work in a 9-5 job, earn and go home without any value adds or do I get married and do the right thing.
Well right and wrong haven't bothered me much...Else I would not be here pouring my heart out :)
Looks like I will still go ahead and try my best to run away from being caged as long as I can afford to...
Neither am I caught up in any new marketing campaign nor am I devoting my time to my so called GMAT. Yes, you heard it right I have also been bitten by the bug or I too have decided to be in queue for VISA with GMAT as my passport to an unexplored destination! Reading the above 2 lines if the RC section asked you to infer what the paragraph reads, you would probably check an option that says that I am one of the many Indians bitten by the "Phoreen" bug, as you won't be able to categorize me as a "BRAIN DRAIN" there will be violent protest (I know JB, J, Lenny and TG are nodding their heads right now) or unlike most of the people I know I am not a "CONFUSED INDIAN". So, all my close friends wonder what makes me go back to calculations and formulas I have been avoiding for the last 8years!! The motivation for me to pursue further studies to help me chart a successful and meaningful career has nothing to do with me being ambitious or wanting to climb the corporate ladder.
GMAT to me is more like a ticket to freedom... freedom from what? Freedom from the obligation of getting married at the right age and making others happy while sacrificing your own :)... yeah I know sounds typical of a 26 year old, commitment phobic character from any Hollywood movie...as far as I am concerned not that I am scared of making commitments, considering I have a resume of steady relationships that vouch for my stability. The point I fail to argue is, my family saying "it is the right age”. Somewhere deep down I too know that, but is it the right thing to do, coz it is the right age? no one can answer that and I am just tired of vague answers like " well, there is nothing as RIGHT TIME" or "you need to work it out" or "someday you are gonna end up doing it, so start early" or the most dreaded one "what are you waiting for", this is only really hits you hard, Its like asking haven't you finally arrived in life, which I don't agree with at all, why not take a closer look ...do I earn enuff? Maybe, are you happy with your job? Can’t say... have I met someone I would like to be with... complicated!! though I am the Gen X and the kid who welcomed millennium I still am too vary about taking a decision when it comes to life partner, unless I have someone in mind, I think that is the root cause of my confusion.
and to add to my confusion I suddenly feel that I am surrounded by eligible men who are either married (very complicated), my friends (a big NO, I know their gory habits), in relationship (as good as married and don't interest me), GAY (I don't interest them), Workaholics (I again don't interest them!), the intellects (need to remind them BRAINS are located way above) ... and rest are just JERKS (I speak from experience).
I never was a fan of Mills and Boons and found it cliché to read ... however I wish I was a character from the story :) or maybe that character from all those happily ever after movies :)
All of 26 years old I am already beginning to doubt my purpose in life. Is it just to work in a 9-5 job, earn and go home without any value adds or do I get married and do the right thing.
Well right and wrong haven't bothered me much...Else I would not be here pouring my heart out :)
Looks like I will still go ahead and try my best to run away from being caged as long as I can afford to...
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